Reality struck me on a Saturday afternoon, when at 2:30 pm my parents asked me the inevitable question. Should we start looking for a girl for you? It struck me like a bolt of lightning. A sharp painful shiver ran throughout my body like i was stung by tens and thousands of jelly fish.
It all started in 1997, ‘Dil to pagal hai’ made me believe in soul mates and since then I have been the Romeo who roam the streets at midnight on Valentine’s Day whistling the anthem, believing that somewhere my girl is waiting for me. Coming Valentine’s Day, I marked the 23rd anniversary of my loneliness. Cupid miss fired again; no wonder he never gets to compete in Olympics.
Some are happy with their single status; to me they are the biggest liars. Deep down inside, we all need someone to love and getting a dog is not the option. Some hide their single status with “I don’t care about Valentine’s day” or “I am proud to single” status messages. This year was no different with people flooding my wall with “Happy Single day’s messages”. But this year we touched new heights of foolishness, people tagging each other in ‘teddy bear’ bearing pics, even boys were tagging each other and singing the happy Valentine’s Day carol.
But this Valentine’s Day was special because I let go of the only person I could imagine spending my life with. I let go of My Soul Sister. I let go of any possibility of our future together. This time there was no regret, shame or pain like the last time when I had to let go of the girl I was in love with for past 14 years. This time I was self-complacent. You might wonder why let go of someone who is so near to your heart.
Truth is the acrid cocktail that we have to consume one way or other. In real life, not every childhood friend would turn out to be Josephine Potter. “For every Dawson there is a Joey” is an old fashioned adage that has lost its significance over time. No matter how hard you try, you can never make a person fall in love with you.
Can we be friends with someone and not fall for them? According to jumsumtak (a good friend of mine) the answer is no, and was he right!! I have never seen a man so sure of things, listening to him is like epiphany every day.
Thanks, to my new found passion for twitter, i might come through. After all who needs love, when you have friends like jumsumtak, you can grow old with friends, all you have to do is pull yourself together and fight this day with every ounce of strength in your body.
When the going gets tough, keep a tissue paper and “All By Myself” by Eric Carmen handy, and cry it out loud. It was during this weak moment when i picked up my phone, dialled home and said “Yes, I am ready to marry Malhotra Uncle’s daughter.”
P.S : This post is dedicated to Grammy award winner Lady gaga (girl I let go)!